A classmate of mine was killed last October as some of you might know. The driver was finally sited and I was content not to rehash it more that I needed to. I had panic attacks leaving my house and a things where generally kind of a downer around school. I went on the memorial ride for Tracey after she died and swung by school and wrote my thoughts about Tracey in the notebook for her parents and presided home. I was a bit of a wreck and not really in riding condition resulting in a conflict with driver in the pearl right after I left PNCA. Some of the conflict was be not being assertive and some of it was him. I wanted to tell him why I got upset but his windows where up.
Okay, why am I bringing this up? Portland is holding a ride of silents and I’m feeling conflicted on weather to go or not. Is it necisary, can we teach motorists anything from this? Will I be mentally competent to finish the ride after getting to Tracey’s bike? Could my time be better served working with PNCA to get student bike trailers next year and possible covered bike parking.
It’s tomorrow, I have a little time to think this over but I’m getting ball in stomach just thinking about it. Sorry for such a downed piece after such a long break.