The days of cold are coming to an end. It might be rainy but I can still sleep with the window open at night so I’d say we’re well on our way. So if you’ve been avoiding it get our on your bike. Take a ride around the neighborhood, go down by the river and check out the pirate ship docked near the Hawthorne bridge. Look at the shift calender for some scheduled fun. Remember pedalpalooza is just around the corner so be ready to have fun by having plenty of fun before hand.
I going to be at the ride of silence in Portland. I decided to buck up and go. It’s important in a larger context and if I loose my shit I can stop at any point. It might feel better than last time because I wont be alone I’ll be with others. So if your in meet me at NW Park and Everett maybe we can get a beer afterwards.
Above all be safe.
A classmate of mine was killed last October as some of you might know. The driver was finally sited and I was content not to rehash it more that I needed to. I had panic attacks leaving my house and a things where generally kind of a downer around school. I went on the memorial ride for Tracey after she died and swung by school and wrote my thoughts about Tracey in the notebook for her parents and presided home. I was a bit of a wreck and not really in riding condition resulting in a conflict with driver in the pearl right after I left PNCA. Some of the conflict was be not being assertive and some of it was him. I wanted to tell him why I got upset but his windows where up.
Okay, why am I bringing this up? Portland is holding a ride of silents and I’m feeling conflicted on weather to go or not. Is it necisary, can we teach motorists anything from this? Will I be mentally competent to finish the ride after getting to Tracey’s bike? Could my time be better served working with PNCA to get student bike trailers next year and possible covered bike parking.
It’s tomorrow, I have a little time to think this over but I’m getting ball in stomach just thinking about it. Sorry for such a downed piece after such a long break.